So tonight I had a band performance and it was very emotional because my band teacher got a new job. I'm very happy for her, but I'm also sad to see her go, and I'm going to high-school. She is easily my favourite teacher, as she cares for everyone and puts 200% in everyday, and puts a smile on for everyone and is the kindest person I know. She has made playing in band as well as learning and playing the flute a fantastic time, and I can't think of a person in our band who she hasn't helped in a major way. Okay, she's a great teacher and a great person. Okay? Okay.
Now on to what happened. I played the honour band, and all went well. The honour band in our school is an extracurricular band that we go to in 7:30 in the morning to play for. Remember when I said she gives 200%? Well, she does that everyday, and stays for about 1-2 hours after school in addition to what she teaches in school. So anyways, the performance went well, then it was time for our band to perform (our in school band) so we all went out and played, I nailed my small solo, and as we are in grade 9 that leaves next year, we played last and she gave a great big goodbye to us, and we did the same.
Now here is what bothers me. As we were all standing around, waiting to thank out band director, (about 130 of us wanting to thank one person) one of the girls in my class noticed I wasn't crying. This WAS very emotional, and I was happy and sad at the same time. Now this girl, who had repeatedly yelled out comments in the middle of class that don't help in what we are learning, come up to me and starts talking about how she was happy to not have worn make-up, then turns to me and tells me I'm not crying. I replied, "Okay?" (now she has been in my class twice before, so she knows I don't cry that much anymore.) And she replies, "well no guy can call himself a man if he can't express his emotions and cry." Dafuq? At that point I just shrugged her off, she has made terrible offhand comments before, so I've learned to shrug most of them off. Anyways, I got to thank my band director and got a picture with her, it was a almost perfect day/night.
Now my bitching rant. I can express my fucking emotions. I don't express them to everybody, so she can just just fuck off. Yes, a man CAN cry, but does that mean a man will bawl his eyes out every single time he feels an emotion? Mother Fucking NO! That would be like me going up to a girl and saying if she dresses provocatively that she is a whore. NO, IT FUCKING ISN'T! Guys will express our emotions differently than girls. And I do feel emotions. So fuck you. I'm pissed off. (Should this be brought up in class? my class has some pretty intense debates, would this be good?) Anyways, I know her locker combo, might just go shit in her locker, or better yet, her flute. Did I mention I have 3 more year of band with her. FML. Now, SOMETIMES, and only sometimes, her comments COULD be useful. But a lot of the time it disrupts something (the class or band rehearsal, etc.) So yeah, I'm fucking fed up with this persons backhanded insults and stupidity.
TL;DR: This girl has repeatedly made bad comments and now has said guys can't express their emotions or cry so they aren't a real man. So I'm pissed. Should I debate this in class when she's there? Might guilt trip her? (and I'm aware at my age I can't really call myself a "MAN," but you get what I'm getting at right?)
Edited by ILostTheGame, 08 June 2012 - 01:38 AM.