As most of you will see, I am a big opponent of "high school" relationships. Every time there is a thread about girl problems im the first to chime in and tell you that they are pointless and a waste of your time. That they will do nothing but cause you trouble.. I am going to be completely honest with you here when I tell you that it is because I spent 3 years of my young life getting my heart broken by a girl I loved over and over and over. I managed to convince myself that she was the only person I will ever love that she was my everything, At one point I was putting her over my basic needs. Needless to say we had a rather interesting "relationship."
This girl was absolutely perfect in my eyes and she was my best friend we could always talk for hours and hours and never get bored. Till one point she decided she wanted to see other people. I accepted what she wanted, although it seemed like no matter who she was with she would always come back to me. She was of course my best friend still. It was always a blah blah he is going out partying again, he does not treat me nearly as good as you do, why cant I just be happy. It would come down to her straight up using me when someone else let her down again.
Then she started dating a guy two years older than us. Shes been with him for 2 years now, in the beginning with him she was always telling me how she missed me, my friendship, everything we used to do what we used to talk about. That she wanted me to stay in her life. I always saw her in class and that made things awkward and painful. I never really got over her, she was the one I let get away. Now 3 months after graduation she called me last night, for those of you who have me on Facebook that is what my 3:30 AM status was about. "Rock Fucking Bottom" she called me in tears and I heard the genuine sorrow in her voice, that she needed me in her life that she loved me that she always loved me and she needs me.
Everything about this is screaming no no no dont go back, I spent the last few years going in and out of pointless empty relationships with different girls in an attempt to get over her and I ended up just hurting myself even more because of it. Because I was not with her I was causing myself unimaginable amounts of heartache. Now here she is just like she was before crying over the phone at 3am telling me she wants me back. I still dont know how to think about this, I dont know what to do other than to follow my heart for once and hope it does not bite me in the ass. I loved this girl more than anything and I never really stopped its just been a messy road.
Your input is appreciated, I know im asking a lot but if you cant give me a mature well thought out reply please just over look this thread. Anything else I will consider as spam and harassment and I will report you to the banhammer. Thank you for reading and if you respond with something insightful thank you even more for the advice its valued.