After a rather interesting 5 years a chapter in my life has come to an end.
After lots of driving, profanity, screaming and incoherent gibberish it's finially over.
There is only one person on this forum who knows what I am talking about.
I am typically a really laid back guy but after 5 years of bullshit slowly accumulating I totally completely and utterly became unhinged I have never in my entire life done anything the likes of which happened last night and I hope I never let it happen again.
I dragged myself back from the depths of an animalistic blood rage that consumed me body and soul. I have a few very close friends to thank for managing to talk me down.
The long story is not very glamorous and rather pathetic so I will not go into great detail.
However for the younger guys on here I will issue a warning.
NEVER let anyone take advantage of you, no matter how much they mean to you. You are worth so much more than that. There is no feeling like the feeling of disappointment and worthlessness. No girl is worth your sanity, no matter how much you think you may love her.
Do not go down the path I did, do not let yourself be a pawn to be played and sacrificed when its convenient.
Be a fucking lion, go out live life have fun and be yourself, dont ever try and change yourself to suit someone else because when the person who deserves you comes along you will know and it will simply feel right.
-Thats all folks.