I;d like to thank all of you for your helpful and comic insight. I think I have things back on track! basically i left her alone completely except for when she called me last night. Then tonight I asked her if I could come down to her room. so I get down there and we small talk for a bit. she comes over and sits next to me on the futon and asks me whats up. I tell her I don't want to be the guy who won't leave her alone so I will give it one last try and and if she says no I wont bother her. After that I apologized for the way I acted and how I hurt her. She of course tried to take the blame but i reaffirmed that this one was on me. I know that there's gonna be hard times ahead but I want to be there beside her to help her through them. she tells me she can't ask me to go through this with her. i tell her that she doesn't need to ask, that i'm here because I want to be, and that I want to see this thing through to the end whether it be a year or a lifetime. She falls into me and pulls me tight and tells me that she was stupid to push me out and asks me to forgive her for it. after assuring her it'll be alright we both proceed to hold each other tight and we just sat like that smiling like idiots at one another for well over an hour. Life is awesome again.
Peace, Love, and bacon grease,