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Panda's Revenge

Member Since 14 Nov 2012
Offline Last Active Jun 24 2014 09:26 AM
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Topics I've Started

new pb vidya... after like a year or something

27 April 2014 - 01:00 PM


Social Networking

12 September 2013 - 11:11 PM

While awesome, it's also stupid.

Stupid in a way that if you're not somebody you're nobody.

and that's stupid.


A Depressing Rant.

10 September 2013 - 10:35 PM

Well, depressing to me at least.

 

Let me start off with my life story, trust me it's relevant.

As a young child, I wanted to be an astronaut. Yeah, just like every other child.

As I was growing up, I liked to open things and figure out how they work, and with the advent of the internet I wanted to know what job would have me take things apart.

Turns out, that's what an engineer is (essentially).

For the longest time I wanted to be an engineer, I took up the engineering elective in middle school and I'm currently in my 3rd year of the 4 year program in high school.

I always thought I wanted to be an engineer.

 

And then I took a look at things.

I don't want to be working behind a desk all day.

Sure, it makes bank but what the fuck am I going to do with the money if I'm depressed?

I don't want to be in an anti-social environment.

I think it's because I don't want to grow up.

 

That's what this rant is about. How I don't want to grow up.

I'm not ready for a desk job, and I don't think I'll ever be ready. I like to be a social guy, and obviously working at a desk doesn't work out for me.

My main goal in life is to make people happy. I really don't like it to see people sad.

 

So I've considered the entertainment business.

What's not to like about that? It's where I feel like I belong because I don't have to sit behind a desk, doing stuff on the computer.

You get to be in a social environment, you get to make people happy when they see your show/movie/commercial (there's a lot of good ones out there) etc.

Also, I already had a little experience as an extra so I know how the industry works.

Too bad that as a B-Actor you don't get paid much. I don't like that.

Also, I've been trying to get an agent the entire year that I tried it out. I suck too much at acting to be able to get a callback. It also shows how difficult it is to land an agent.

 

So scratch acting.

Music?

Sure, I can play piano, music is awesome and I love it.

Too bad I can't sing.

Piano alone has little to no relevance in the modern music world if you can't sing.

I tried learning guitar.

I guess I can join a band if I'm good enough.

I don't see myself going that far.

 

Okay, so the 2 main career options that fit my life goal has both reached dead ends.

 

Honestly, I just cannot see myself as an engineer currently. That may change, and I realize that but right now it's not where I want to take my life.

It seems so boring.

Get engineering job, get money.

Get married

spend money

get house

spend money

get kids

spend money

grow up with kids

die

 

I just can't comprehend that there won't be anything worthwile in my life.

I just can't.

 

And this is all my Honors Am. Lit teacher.

She's the one that made me realize that my time on this planet is so limited. 

And now I want to basically YOLO my life.

 

I guess I could use some help.

Maybe I should seek a therapist.

 

 

 


WTB: Eclipse parts!

27 August 2013 - 10:05 PM

Looking for

Eclipse E2 Manifold ONLY - $10
Etek 2 Frame WITH board AND board - $80

Offer up, building a project marker and need this stuff.

 


Something a little more practical

24 August 2013 - 01:36 AM

Since nobody wants to buy my quest, I decided I'll drop an Ego frame on it.

 

I plan to fix a manifold to it and run barbs and hoses like on the timmies.

 

So far I'm looking at about $200 if I don't fuck anything up.

 

Anybody have experience on this?