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Panda's Revenge

Member Since 14 Nov 2012
Offline Last Active Jun 24 2014 09:26 AM

Topics I've Started

new pb vidya... after like a year or something

27 April 2014 - 01:00 PM

Social Networking

12 September 2013 - 11:11 PM

While awesome, it's also stupid.

Stupid in a way that if you're not somebody you're nobody.

and that's stupid.

A Depressing Rant.

10 September 2013 - 10:35 PM

Well, depressing to me at least.


Let me start off with my life story, trust me it's relevant.

As a young child, I wanted to be an astronaut. Yeah, just like every other child.

As I was growing up, I liked to open things and figure out how they work, and with the advent of the internet I wanted to know what job would have me take things apart.

Turns out, that's what an engineer is (essentially).

For the longest time I wanted to be an engineer, I took up the engineering elective in middle school and I'm currently in my 3rd year of the 4 year program in high school.

I always thought I wanted to be an engineer.


And then I took a look at things.

I don't want to be working behind a desk all day.

Sure, it makes bank but what the fuck am I going to do with the money if I'm depressed?

I don't want to be in an anti-social environment.

I think it's because I don't want to grow up.


That's what this rant is about. How I don't want to grow up.

I'm not ready for a desk job, and I don't think I'll ever be ready. I like to be a social guy, and obviously working at a desk doesn't work out for me.

My main goal in life is to make people happy. I really don't like it to see people sad.


So I've considered the entertainment business.

What's not to like about that? It's where I feel like I belong because I don't have to sit behind a desk, doing stuff on the computer.

You get to be in a social environment, you get to make people happy when they see your show/movie/commercial (there's a lot of good ones out there) etc.

Also, I already had a little experience as an extra so I know how the industry works.

Too bad that as a B-Actor you don't get paid much. I don't like that.

Also, I've been trying to get an agent the entire year that I tried it out. I suck too much at acting to be able to get a callback. It also shows how difficult it is to land an agent.


So scratch acting.


Sure, I can play piano, music is awesome and I love it.

Too bad I can't sing.

Piano alone has little to no relevance in the modern music world if you can't sing.

I tried learning guitar.

I guess I can join a band if I'm good enough.

I don't see myself going that far.


Okay, so the 2 main career options that fit my life goal has both reached dead ends.


Honestly, I just cannot see myself as an engineer currently. That may change, and I realize that but right now it's not where I want to take my life.

It seems so boring.

Get engineering job, get money.

Get married

spend money

get house

spend money

get kids

spend money

grow up with kids



I just can't comprehend that there won't be anything worthwile in my life.

I just can't.


And this is all my Honors Am. Lit teacher.

She's the one that made me realize that my time on this planet is so limited. 

And now I want to basically YOLO my life.


I guess I could use some help.

Maybe I should seek a therapist.




WTB: Eclipse parts!

27 August 2013 - 10:05 PM

Looking for

Eclipse E2 Manifold ONLY - $10
Etek 2 Frame WITH board AND board - $80

Offer up, building a project marker and need this stuff.


Something a little more practical

24 August 2013 - 01:36 AM

Since nobody wants to buy my quest, I decided I'll drop an Ego frame on it.


I plan to fix a manifold to it and run barbs and hoses like on the timmies.


So far I'm looking at about $200 if I don't fuck anything up.


Anybody have experience on this?